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Ruins

I’m like a car without its brakes
My life is road and speed
Somebody save me from myself
Cause there is nothing stopping me
Pain from the wound is getting stronger
I cannot take it anymore
Feel like I’m drowning in your shadow
Not sure what I am fighting for

My torch
Burned to the ground
Conscience on my tongue
I’m falling into the labyrinth again
I sowed
What I have now
My life has gone wrong
I’m crying out for you

Can’t stand this living in your shadow
I need helping out
Just want the chance to start all over
Into darkness I shout
Won’t you come with me, through the ruins
Can’t make it by myself
I had a dream, where us two crossed
Over the bridge, to some place else

My torch
Burned to the ground
Conscience on my tongue
I’m falling into the labyrinth again
I sowed
What I have now
My life has gone wrong
I’m crying out for you

My torch
Burned to the ground
Conscience on my tongue
I’m falling into the labyrinth again
I sowed
What I have now
My life has gone wrong
I’m crying out for you
My torch
Burned to the ground
Conscience on my tongue
I’m falling into the labyrinth again
I sowed
What I have now
My life has gone wrong
I’m crying out for you

A Day Without You

You broke my heart
Filled me with pain
Now I have nothing to hold on to
Life is empty
I want to take off
But my wings are weak
Feels like the Earth has disappeared
Beneath my feet

Today is a day without you
Tomorrow another day without you
Day after day without you
I want to forget
Move on to anywhere but
You’re in my head
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do
To share with you
My love forever true

To touch your lips
To kiss your skin
So I could find myself again
Inside your loving
You seem to soar
Although I’m crushed
I know I need to set you free
But it’s killing me

Today is a day without you
Tomorrow another day without you
Day after day without you
My whole life, without you
I want to forget
Move on to anywhere but
You’re in my head
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do
To share with you
My love forever true

I want to forget
Move on to anywhere but
You’re in my head

I want to forget
Move on to anywhere but
You’re in my head
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do
To share with you
My love forever true
I want to forget
Move on to anywhere but
You’re in my head
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do
To share with you
My love forever true
My love forever true

Signs

I see your signs each way I look
They hypnotize me, keep me hooked
I want to be true to myself
But they force me into your Hell

I crave my freedom
Want to dance
I want to scream
I want to laugh
To do what I want
When I want
To be free
Just like I used to be

You pierce our heads with your bullets
To paralyse all of our will
Try hard as we all do to resist
You capture our souls for a thrill
You pierce our heads with your bullets
To paralyse all of our will
Try hard as we all do to resist
You capture our souls for a thrill

The signs start to crush and oppress me
Tokens from a dark, disturbed mind
Now reaching my core and periphery
I’ve left all that I was behind

I crave my freedom
Want to dance
I want to scream
I want to laugh
To do what I want
When I want
To be free

You pierce our heads with your bullets
To paralyse all of our will
Try hard as we all do to resist
You capture our souls for a thrill
You pierce our heads with your bullets
To paralyse all of our will
Try hard as we all do to resist
You capture our souls for a thrill

You employ your slaves to attack
But we’re taking our freedom back
A temporary beating
Is not a defeating
Your hollow existence will crack
The walls you erected
Will all grow infected
And fall in a pile of black
The truth on our side
We’ll rise, all in white
And get our lives back

You pierce our heads with your bullets
To paralyse all of our will
Try hard as we all do to resist
You capture our souls for a thrill

Perfect (Not)

Why are you trying to change me?
Wipe away all that I am
What is perfection in your eyes?
You forgot to ask me the same
I look at myself in the mirror
And I like the person I see
Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t see you
Do you think that you can break me?

You tell me the ways I should change, rearrange
But I have got something to say

Who do you think you are?
To rid me of all of my scars!
I'm on my own way
Don’t need you to say
That I’m perfect
And I don’t need to be saved
I know I’ve been damaged
But I’m liking myself this way

I'll read your news in the morning
All about your perfect life
Then I’ll look at my reflection
And breathe a huge sigh of relief
Your perfection never would suit me
I find treasure in the mess
I'm not what you want, you can’t change me
Do you really think to break me?

And make me succumb to your standards
Well, no, I've got something to say

Who do you think you are?
To rid me of all of my scars
I'm on my own way
Don’t need you to say
That I’m perfect
And I don’t need to be saved
I know I’ve been damaged
But I’m liking myself this way

I live every day with a smile on my face
Happy to be living true
Been going my own way, for all of my life
A way that would never suit you

Who do you think you are?
To rid me of all of my scars
I'm on my own way
And I’m perfect
And I don’t need to be saved
Who do you think you are?
To rid me of all of my scars
I'm on my own way
Don’t need you to say
That I’m perfect
And I don’t need to be saved
I know I’ve been damaged
But I’m liking myself this way

Elevator

Searching the bottom of my memory
Can't find you and
Only thoughts, scattered spots
Stuck elevator in my head

I remember the colour of your eyes
But all I can see are tears in mine

Cause I know you still love me
Though you’re not with me
Doors that are closed, we can’t get through
I’ll still be trying to remember you
The light of our love no longer shines
But I will shine for you from afar

We tried to fix everything we broke
When we were together
Guess now we know, that we don’t know
It’s in my head like a stuck elevator

Cause I know you still love me
Though you’re not with me
Doors that are closed, we can’t get through
I’ll still be trying to remember you
The light of our love no longer shines
But I will shine for you from afar

Cause I know you still love me
I know you love me
Cause I know you still love me
Though you’re not with me
Doors that are closed, we can’t get through
I’ll still be trying to remember you
The light of our love no longer shines
But I will shine for you from afar
From afar
From afar

Erased

I let you enter me with anger
And hit me with your hate
Burnt me to ashes in your fire
There’s nothing more to take
Each place I hide
There’s your sword concealed
Twisting around inside
Things I denied, revealed

Streams of dirt
Flow from me

Now
I stand naked alone
Coals burn under my feet
Anything to wash away my sins
I’m becoming erased!

I watched you take my whole world from me
But it’s mine to reclaim
Each time I wake, my mouth is bitter
As I rid myself of waste
But strength will come
Now I can erase
I lit the past aflame
Ready to start again

Streams of dirt
Flow from me

Now
I stand naked, alone
Coals burn under my feet
Anything to wash away my sins
I’m becoming erased!
I’m becoming erased!

Erase your face
Erase the memories
There is no place
For recalling what
Never should have been

I stand naked, alone
Coals burn under my feet
Anything to wash away my

Now
I stand naked, alone
Coals burn under my feet
Anything to wash away my sins
I’m becoming erased!
I stand naked, alone
Coals burn under my feet
Anything to wash away my
I’m becoming erased!

You Led Me To Hell

I will leave you when day turns to night
Depart your deceptive paradise
Your tears are just a pretence
In keeping with your whole essence
You asked for my heart, I complied
Sharpened and handed you the knife
You asked for my sweet liberty
I chose you above being free

You held me, you held me so tight
I believed I was right by your side
Now I know you were far, far away
Every night and all through every day
I thought we were going to heaven
But instead, you led me to hell
Your darkness became my obsession
Your void became my void, as well

Your kiss is a toxic snakebite
I know now that nothing was right
You wanted me under your strings
A puppet, who’d do anything
You laughed in my face for a long time
I won't let you do it again
Your spell, I am no longer charmed by
My days with you have been spent

You held me, you held me so tight
I believed I was right by your side
Now I know you were far, far away
Every night and all through every day
I thought we were going to heaven
But instead, you led me to hell
Your darkness became my obsession
Your void became my void, as well

I will leave you when day turns to night
Into freedom, my own paradise
I’ll depart your malicious mirage
My brightness will begin in the dark
In the dark
In the dark
In the dark

Angel Brought You

Staring at your scarlet lips
Lips that I’m blessed to have kissed
Ivory soft skin sublime
Out of this world: you’re divine
When our paths first crossed, I knew
Real beauty was alive in you
When you looked my way I spied
A piece of heaven in your eyes

I will live for you
The love I’ve waited for
All you have to do
Is be you and be adored

Your fair hair falls as you rest
I feel your lips upon my chest
I hear your heart beating with mine
Our fingers gently intertwined
But night-time moves, the sun brings light
You look at me, your eyes are bright
My heart jumps: I can’t let you go
You’re all I am, you’re all I know
The time we share cannot just pass
I close my eyes to make it last
You kiss me softly: it’s confirmed
An angel brought you to this world

I will live for you
The love I’ve waited for
All you have to do
Is be you and be adored

Please, don’t ever leave
This love I’ve waited for so long
With you I believe in things
I never would before

I will live for you
The love I’ve waited for
All you have to do
Is be you and be adored
I will live for you
The love I’ve waited for
All you have to do
Is be you and be adored
Is be you and be adored

Backstab

Furious and confused
Inside my thoughts I am consumed
Going around and around
How you stabbed me in the back
Driven crazy by your words
Just like my love they’re absurd
But something I can’t control

With your chain I am tied
But our intimacy melts into the night

Somehow, we get trapped in time
Your poison violently flies
Burning my heart and my mind
I soothe myself while you smile
You leave lacerated wounds
And bring unbearable pain
But like the stars and the moon
I’ll come to meet you again

With your chain I am tied
But our intimacy melts into the night
With your chain I am tied
But our intimacy melts into the night

I regret falling for you
Immediately consumed
But I would never have guessed
That you would cause this distress
Stabbed in the back and betrayed
You’re saying ‘never again’
But you’ve said those words before
I can’t believe you no more

With your chain I am tied
With your chain I am tied
With your chain I am tied
With your chain I am tied
But our intimacy melts into the night
(into the night)
I am tied, I am tied, I am tied (into the night)
I am tied, I am tired… Oh oh oh (into the night)
But our intimacy melts into the night.

Rain Song

Streams of rain behind the glass
We sit and watch as people pass
We're sitting still, they're running fast
Escaping the downpour
Our conversation doesn't come
Each waiting for the other one
You wrap your hanky around your thumb
I roll a cigarette

Stay with me here for a while
Without many words, just let me see your smile
That night, we found there's nothing wrong
We lost ourselves in the rain song

You and I, we made the choice
To share some time without a voice
Found music in what once was noise
With love, heard the rain song

Stay with me here for a while
Without many words, just let me see your smile
That night, we found there's nothing wrong
We lost ourselves in the rain song

Rain… rain…
We lost ourselves in the rain song

Illusion

Wake up again, fake smile on your face
Another day of happiness or so you say
It’s getting hard; it might be time to put a stop
To the façade you’ve never been able to drop
Every man looking out only for himself
Running from his own private version of Hell
But all you long for can be yours, just play it right
It’s time to act; the hunter follows you, tonight

You’ve been ruled by greed
It’s written on your face
And void beneath your feet
It’s time to run a different race

The game of life is cruel, but ours to play
Your bluebird waits for you, another day
Find it and catch it with both hands; it waits
The tunnel you run through is not the way
No light the other side, just dark and grey
Your hunter right behind you, on your trail
He aims for you, he aims and aims

You think you’ll find a way
Better than all the rest
You think there’s light ahead
A bluebird waiting in its nest
Are you ready to fight
Make changes to your life?
Illusions block the light
The hunter sharpens his old knife

The game of life is cruel, but ours to play
Your bluebird waits for you, another day
Find it and catch it with both hands; it waits
The tunnel you run through is not the way
No light the other side, just dark and grey
Your hunter right behind you, on your trail
He aims for you, he aims and aims

You’ve been ruled by greed
It’s written on your face
And void beneath your feet
It’s time to run a different race
The game of life is cruel, but ours to play
Your bluebird waits for you, another day
Find it and catch it with both hands; it waits
The tunnel you run through is not the way
No light the other side, just dark and grey
Your hunter right behind you, on your trail
He aims for you, he aims and aims

Throw a stone 

Throw a stone 
I could defend my name
But I don’t get a say
Your words, always, your way
Me in a box
Exist as part of you
Actions I can’t undo
Twisted until they suit

But did you think someday
That our places will change?

Throw a stone
Each time you judge me
Vicious, I cannot be
But through your eyes you see
A villain, a bad guy
A criminal, dark mind
A man best left behind

Silence will be my stone
It’s stillness devastates
Throw a stone, again
I’ll take it now, but wait
The words I couldn’t say
Will hold their strength that way

But did you think someday
That our places will change?

Throw a stone
Each time you judge me
Vicious, I cannot be
But through your eyes, you see
A villain, a bad guy
A criminal, dark mind
A man best left behind

Throw a stone
Each time you judge me
Vicious, I cannot be
But through your eyes, you see
A villain, a bad guy
A criminal, dark mind
A man best left behind

Winter Night

Black keys, keys white
Dark rose, bright night
A cut to the skin
A pain deep within
Now we are just a haze in the night
Chasing ghosts, we should've leave behind
Faint shadows under moonlight
I wish we could do it right

Winter night
Covers my sleep, covers my sleep, covers my sleep
Winter night
Covers my sleep, covers my sleep, covers my sleep

Your hands, my heart
My pain, your art
Your cold beautiful eyes still looking at me
I wish someday you will set… I wish you will set me free!

Winter night
Covers my sleep, covers my sleep, covers my sleep
Searching for you all in vain
Found only shadows again

Winter night
Covers my sleep, covers my sleep, covers my sleep
Searching for you all in vain
Found only shadows again
Winter night
Covers my sleep, covers my sleep, covers my sleep

Unforgiven

I made a promise to you
But I couldn’t see it through
Now I’m on my own again
Heading through the road of shame
I flashed my smile of deceit
That burnt through you, burnt through me
I’m filthy, I’m dirt, I’m flawed
Been through far too many doors

I'm not looking for salvation
I know I’m far from a saint
And I’m not asking for forgiveness
I’ll never bother you again
Remain deep in my contemplation
Trying hard not to look back
I’m unforgiven, by myself as well
The good times painted black

Taking on the challenge, now
I’m moving on, I don’t know how
But as I walk through the unknown
I feel the growth within my soul
I’ve not a reason to complain
No-body but myself to blame
Made many, too many mistakes
But I know I’ve got what it takes!

I'm not looking for salvation
I know I’m far from a saint
And I’m not asking for forgiveness
I’ll never bother you again
Remain deep in my contemplation
Trying hard not to look back
I’m unforgiven, by myself as well
The good times painted black

I had a dream
Wherein the sun shone on my face
But still, I walked into the night
Door, after door
Not even sure what I would score
But now, I know I was never right

I'm not looking for salvation
I know I’m far from a saint
And I’m not asking for forgiveness
I’ll never bother you again
Remain deep in my contemplation
Trying hard not to look back
I’m unforgiven, by myself as well
The good times painted black
I'm not looking for salvation
And I’m not asking for forgiveness
Remain deep in my contemplation
I’m unforgiven
I’m unforgiven

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